Heyy,, today im back again with new story.. hehehe.. Bored at home.. F bored,, seriously.. hahaha.. Yesterday night,, Hairul Nizam text me.. Nothing much we talked.. He told me that he wont be able to attend my appt on the 5th.. Ohh well,, bilenye yang die boleh datang for appt.. Tak terkejot pun.. lol.. Then,, he got told me that he miss me and stuff.. Jiwang lahh kirekan.. II also take part by playing hys jiwang too.. Donnoe lahh.. Till when he want to be lyke that.. mood off sia bebual sal die.. Teringat alek kenangan.. Shit !!!


Ya Allah,, kau kuatkan semangatku, hatiku dan jiwaku untuk teruskan hidop tanpanya.. Aku tak mampu tuk disakiti lagi.. Lupakan prasaan cinta ku terhadapnya.. Aku sedar dia bukanlah jodohku yang sebenar.. Tolonglah ya Allah.. Aku tidak kuat untuk ini semua.. Kau kuatkan hatiku, ya Allah.. Kau berilah aku kehidupan baru tanpanya.. Jauhkan lahh dia dariku.. Biarlah cinta kami menjadi satu kenangan sahaja.. Amin.. 

Heyy,, im back again today with my new story.. hehe.. Well,, ii just came back from Plaza Singapura.. ii went there alone.. Saw my cuzzen there - Farhan.. Lucky he didnt saw my tummy.. LOL.. Saw hym at MacD.. II was havin my lunch actually.. After my lunch,, ii went back to the phone shop to collect my phone.. Lucky everything was done between 1hour.. So,, ii get back my phone.. hehehe.. No longer paranoid.. Was paranoid last night due to phone was spoiled.. Guess what,, when ii log in to facebook (Suhada Adrian's profile) ii saw a friend request from Hairul Nizam.. Ohh my god!! What is that mean siaa.. But ii didnt accept hym of cause.. What else he want from my life?? This son?? F hym siaa.. He wont get anything from my son.. Not even he get to see my son.. Ohh please God,, help me.. He was not meant for me so please make me strong enough to live without hym in my lyfe.. Please God.. He hurt me too much and my patient was already over my limit... Please God help me to forget my love towards hym.. II just dont want hym to be in my heart.. Please God,, ii beg eu..


Okayy,, my next appointment with KKH will be on the 5th July.. Hopefully nothing happen between me and my future son.. Amin.. So far,, baby is doing great with me.. Didnt make any problem.. Im happy about that.. Already 5months.. Another 4months to go.. Really cant wait to give birth.. Hehe.. Im going to become a mother really soon.. Bestnye!!! hahahah.. Its okayy if ii dont have any boyfriend currently as long ii have my son.. Really cant wait.. God,, please make the day fast.. Please forward to 19 October please.. hahaha... okayy lahh,, till here first okayy,, will update again soon.. takecare readers.. 

Heyy,, im back from so long missin.. Busy with stuff.. Im great anyway,, alhamdulillah.. Currently creating my new life without Hairul Nizam.. We've gone to our own ways.. But the problem is,, he still haven bring his family come over to discuss about our son.. Yeap,, its a baby boy.. Hahah.. hopefully my son didn't own any of Hairul's attitude,, insya'allah.. Till now (i guess) Hairul haven know its a baby boy.. I didn't want him to know because ii know that he will leave me one day.. No point for him to know cause he didn't proud to have this baby.. Evey single day ii pray to God to give me strength to be strong to continue life without Hairul.. And so far,, most of the time im strong enough to continue (thank God, alhamdulillah) but sometime ii still do feel weak when all the memories came across my mind.. Hopefully God will still continue givin me strength to be strong,, amin..

Hey im back now.. sorry lame menghilang.. been very busy and stress.. Kluar masok Hospital.. That day baru kene tahan kat Tan Tock Seng Hospital but lucky my mum understand me and she didn't admit me.. Hehe.. tak selesa lahh kat sane.. Kiri kanan semue orang tua.. Hais.. 


My story now.. Life selain asyik sakit2,, erm okayy lahh.. Me and Hairul is gettin better i think.. We don't really fight that much but same ade we gettin marriage or not,, ii cant answer cox ii donnoe.. People change but its hard to observe if they ikhlas or not.. Susah lahh nak cakap sal die cox ii also donnoe what hys motive.. Me and baby lakk is doin great ii think.. Tapi ade lahh sakit2 jugak perot nie.. This 6 and 7 gonna have scanning to see if its girl or boy.. 

Meet again for more stories.. I hope so.. Okayy,, what should we start with...?? Yesterday?? Sure.. Let's begin.. Yesterday morning ii went to follow mummy to Ang Mo Kio for some personal reason.. The sun was so hot.. When we are on our way to MRT from near by POSB,, i was about to faint.. Lucky ii react fast,, ii went to take a seat nearby to cool myself down.. II was so shocked that tyme.. For 18 years ii didnt faint before and that was the first tyme.. Lucky me.. After ii cool down myself,, we countinue our way back safely.. 


Then at the night,, Hyrul text me.. At first we was great.. But then,, we started to fight again.. He told me something that really make me angry and starting to hate hym.. so yes,, congrats to hym cox he did it.. He manage to make me hate hym.. It has been so long he trying to make hate hym but now,, he really did it.. Now ii just cant hear hym name and see hys face/pic.. I will get damn angry if ii hear or see hys face/name.. Damn hate hym..Really cant be with hym anymore.. Seriously..Then today morning he text me again to asked if im still angry with hym or not.. So ii said not to care about me.. II just dont want hym to show hys actin concern.. I dont need hys acting.. Till now,, he didnt text and ii didnt text hym.. I dont care to text.. To me,, lyke this is good enough.. Im happy with this kind of lyfe.. Dont have to come again into my lyfe.. I just dont need eu anymore,, GUYS !! so GUYS,, just Fuck off for now.. _l_

Bored update..

Back again with new story.. Hahah really miss updating you.. Okay,, what should we start with?? Erm,, let not talk about guys.. Just dont feel lyke talking about it.. Actually ii have nothing to talk about guys.. In my heart,, there's no more guys.. yess,, now days ii post alot of "love" saying but that doesn't mean ii have any feelin towards any guy.. Mungkin saat tu hati terusik dengan kenangan2 lalu.. But fact is there's no guy in my heart.. Not lookin for it too.. Maybe belom mase tok bukakan hati nie tok mane2 lelaki.. Luka2 lalu masih clear in my heart.. Terlalu senang lelaki come and go in my heart.. But now,, i've build a wall depan pintu hati aku.. Sape yang boleh runtohkan wall tu,, he's the best uhs.. Okayy lahh,, takd mood nak update banyak2 uhs.. hahahha... sorry,, will update again soon kayy... 

Untukmu

Heyy im back again today for my another hurt story... But firstly im sorry to the person in this picture.. Sorry for stealing this picture.. 


Well,, saw that guy in that picture?? Yeah,, its Nazri.. My forever crush.. Crush that was from Primary school till now.. I do really love hym.. But what can i do.. I dont want to hurt myself by staying and become the 3rd party of them..  Yes,, those picture hurt me but whats more hurt was when ii ready what both of them conversation.. 


The girl: He never fail to keep me smiling ♡ツHaha.

Nazri: Malu nye saye . . Btw Thnx Dear . 

Im sorry ii cant control my feeling.. I do love you but what else can i do.. I dont want you lost your happiness because of me.. I dont want to be the 3rd party.. Yes,, the fact was you are my happiness but that's doesn't mean that im your happiness too.. I can see that you can make everyone smile.. Just lyke me and this girl.. I don't blame anyone in this case.. Not you or even that girl.. I know who ii am.. Im just a girl who is gonna be a mother at the age of 18.. No one can accept me.. People will only play with my feeling.. I dont mind if you're leaving.. Just be happy with her and promise me not to hurt her feeling.. Take good care of yourself and her.. Be good okayy,, crush..

You will always be my crush,, insya'allah...

Ya Allah,, kau bahagiakan lah mereka.. Jangan sesekali kau pisahkan mereka.. Amin..

Sincerely,,